Yeah, I know most people either couldn’t be persuaded that this is the truth, or they’re smiling saying “Duh…” cause you already know, but let me just say that this world of ours is anything you want it to be. You are free. If you choose to fill it up with love and light, or if you want to struggle and fight, it makes no difference. It is entirely up to you.
Nope, I haven’t just read “the secret” and think I’m iterating some popular, and very selfish, rubbish in my own words. I’ve skimmed the secret, and other similar ideas from the last few years and found them to be well meaning at their core, but in essence I don’t imagine that what I want is altogether good for me. Be careful what you wish for, right? However, I do believe that we create our own reality, and there is a biochemical, and even a mystical truth to the way we see the world. Still, nothing simply manifests without work, nothing is created for us, and surely no dreams were ever fulfilled, no hearts satisfied, no minds awakened by osmosis, or from the good works of someone else, someone outside of ourself. Sad but true, the road is ours to walk alone, to dance with friends, and hold hands with sweethearts, singing together, speaking in whispers, and reveling in all that the world has to offer. Yes. But the work is ours, and the process, the very journey itself is the point of it all. No someday is coming. There is no other time but this moment. Life, like god, or love, is only present right now.
The progress I’ve made in stepping away from scarcity as my resource of virtue, accepting work, making music, taking risks, singing, dancing and living in trust and love have paid handsome dividends. Nothing practical, but something tangible and rare is before me, radiant on my face, and I am beloved, and welcome here.
The thing is, and why I’m really writing about this today (a very busy day where I’m working on my set for tonight, meeting up with friends, and driving out to Oak Grove Regional Park in Stockton to play the sunset set at Grooves in the Park, the sun is out, and beautiful light is shining all around me) is because what I realize in this moment is that this new piece, this headspace, these gifts which seem drench me like rain are amazing, and I am deeply grateful, and yet… I see that they are not additions to my life. Rather, instead of adding things, blocking things out, or making visceral changes to my environment, or any addition to the sensual world, I have let go.
These radiant gestures, this liberated state has been my heart’s desire for as long as I can remember. And baby, it’s just not something to apply. No book gave me these notions, no teacher, no disposable self-help phase of my development as a man. Instead, I simply let go. Yeah, sometimes it’s sad, and sometimes I’m pissed off… talking with myself in the kitchen, or laying on the floor in tears… but each moment appears to be a step toward love. I am doing my best to observe the struggle, and remain impartial, allow my ego all the tears he needs, and let my soul become vibrant and free in the beautiful light of resolve, resolution, and relief.
That’s not to say that steady booking, easy work, re mixes, re edits, new albums, friends, family, fresh fruit, and warm showers haven’t brought about a momentum within me. They do, they are, they have and they will. But today I see love everywhere, and beauty surrounds me. It was the last thing in the world I wanted to do… blasted counter intuitive solutions… but I am so deeply grateful, glad I did.
Wherever your heart may be… shine. Be radiant in your presence, and love with all your heart.
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i can understand the hearts desire…
the freedom… letting go.
this freedom will make you successful. it will open your mind and heart to all sorts.
and you will find that all sorts are open to you and what you have to give.
what a wonderful place you are in.
and yet, i cannot forget about where ( where i think ) you came from.
and i could slag you off for it(what a wonderful term),
hounding you about your remains.
but i don’t want to.
well done sunshine - keep on.
you and mb have in the past brought me out of dispair about the house scene before, and although i don’t feel that sense of urgency now, somehow, i know you will bring me to a higher point again.
s xo
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i can’t spell despair obviously.
can i spell obvioulsly?
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I definitely believe that we can choose what we want in this life. I believe we have limitless potential. Abundance in any form is ours.
I also believe that we are not always conscious of the choices we make. We have so many layers of thoughts and belief, and I think that is why people feel stuck sometimes. Fortunately, there are many ways to flow through the layers of consciousness, and become clear.
Letting go is a process, a continual process that at times seems impossible and at others seems effortless. I think one way to let go, is to be where you are with total acceptance, to sit with what ever IS, whether you deem it (for lack of a better term) positive or negative, happy/sad, fortunate/misfortunate.
We have to let go of what we want and of what we don’t want, and much of the time we don’t want to let go of either. But it is in this release, that we find freedom.
I agree, let your heart radiate, and love with all its being. I love that words vibrant and radiate, and use them all of the time in my classes. We all have such great potential to express beauty and love.
Now I don’t know about the book “the Secret” I have not read it, but maybe it is just a way to help some people see that there are many more possibilities then they ever would have thought, and to tap into the unlimited source of abundance. I think that if someone works to (and yes it takes work) manifest something, they will find out sooner or later whether it was what they needed. Hopefully, we learn from everything we do, and if we “manifest’ the wrong thing for ourselves, potential for more growth will take place.
The path is a lonely one at times, very lonely. Yet we need each other to see ourselves. It is quite ironic. And it is NOW indeed.
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i had a wild conversation with an old friend yesterday and we ended with telling each other that we loved each other. it was so simply and so beautiful.
one thing we talked about but reached no idea on was hope. i’ve been carrying a hope inside me and am afraid to let go.
i feel a hole in my heart that maybe i should stop filling with my mind.
thank you for sharing sunshine.