Personally, I think I bit off a little bit more than I was prepared to chew. I could do a four month series on the subject (don’t worry I won’t) but last sunday night will have to suffice for now. The past is a strange phenomena isn’t it? It’s most certainly not happening now, gone forever, and yet somehow the scars that never heal remain a contributing voice in this moment. How can I approach these experiences with love? How can I heal in a way which will celebrate my life, and liberate both the angry little boy in a leather jacket — the boy with a gun — and the radiant man he has become? Surely only a soft voice, love, and a willingness to let go of the stories I tell myself in order to somehow control and contain the anger, rage, grief, and secrets of things which are nearly unholdable, unapproachable, and gone.

As I continue forward into this momenet, love radiates all around me in the most glorious way. I had no idea that such friendship, love, tenderness, and honesty would guide me toward these avenues of the past again. I had no idea I would be asked to open my heart even wider, to love and to forgive even more. Sometimes it hurts so badly I have no idea what will become of me. Most of the time I am so free, so deeply and completely happy, so free.

Thank you for sharing this experience with me — at least as an artist — journeys to the light, from such deep darkness, and beautiful, radiant love. It means the whole wide world to me. Thank you for showing me with your sweet love, your tender ears, and your dancing feet that I am, and have never been, alone.

Here is the track listing for Sunday Soul – boy with a gun:

1. Sunday Soul – Program ID
2. The Boy With The Gun – David Sylvian
* introduction
3. Haraball – Ytre Rymden Dansskola
4. I Need Love feat. Ron Basejam – Morgan Geist’s Love Dub – Hot Toddy
* re trace the past differently and look at this moment with new eyes
5. Fill up my heart – Sunshine Jones
6. Rain Drops – Jay Lamak
* just try to hold on
7. Caprice – Bogdan Irkük
8. Code 7429 – Lullabies In The Dark
* what would your story be without all the bullshit?
9. Fantasy – Maddslinky Dub – Atjazz
* mother earth
* what have you done?
10. Neeve – Original Mix – Projections, Woolfy
* tell me why…
11. Vehemence Of Silence – Motor City Drum Ensemble Perspective – Andre Lodemann
12. No Strings Attached – Nelue
13. Flight – JP’s Sky High Mix – Burnski
* better must come
14. Innerfearence – Chateau Flight Remix – Spectral Empire
* human too
15. Tumbling Cubes – Q&A
16. 54B – Acid Reflux – Mudd
* love me, hold on and just let go…
17. Flying Nightmare – Acos Coolkas Version – Space
* stories for boys
18. Neon One – Patrice Baumel, Nuno Dos Santos, 360
19. Night Falls – Booka Shade
20. Odyssey – Pryda
21. Full Bet Rule – Ichisan
22. Deep Dive – Soul Pace Mix – Slytek
23. The Look Into Your Eyes – Alex Santos Club Mix – Djazzy, Alex Santos
24. Look Into My Eyes – Ray Mang
25. New York Story – Lee Douglas
26. Ice Castle – The Beat Broker
27. City Shell – Salt Sweet
28. We Are What We Are – Sunshine Jones
29. Bring On The Night feat. Marcus – Rocco TroDeep Remix – Cloudkickers
* raise the white flag of surrender
30. Give It To Me – Wamdue Project Remix – Rasmus Faber
31. Sapphire – Escort Remix – Zombi
* what have we learned so far?
32. Fragment – Galaxy
33. The Boy With The Gun – David Sylvian
34. Sunday Soul – Program ID
35. Brown Eyes – Maulongated Version – MAU vs Fleetwood Mac
36. Sunday Soul – Program ID

Total Running Time: 03 Hours 49 Minutes 20 Seconds
* Performed Live

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