As I move through my days I have found myself strangely constellated in a space which contains both the haunting sadness of loves past, and the simultaneous excitement of a new possibility. While feeling odd about lightness with the loudness of my existing baggage, I have found peace in acceptance of where I am today, in making room for all which exists within me- joy, pain, exhaustion, love…

All there is is now and what the moment brings, so constant and so fluid.

…silly dance moves…
know all about this-
our city had a very nice afternoon outside on monday!

I think that the being in the moment and experiencing what ever is present is beautiful no matter what is going on. It is beautiful to shed tears, or to laugh gleefully. But it is sometimes difficult to actually be in the present moment because of what is going on in the mind.

Sometimes things in the past are haunting, and must be explored, and brought into the present to be released, so you can be clear to be in the present moment and experience what is actually happening now. So clearing the past is definitely essential.

Many things things are happening simultaneously, and we filter through our experiences, sometimes it is slow for sure. It definitely has been for me.

As for connection to pain, and relating to others, I think that in the past I may have found it easier to relate to the pain. Though these days, I want beauty and radiance. I love beauty, and want it around me. I want to connect to people who are seeking light and spiritual growth, and who are consciously releasing their wounds. I will happily listen and relate to someone in pain, because I can feel it, but I hope that I can help in the healing, and I would want the same for myself.

We are meant to have joy, sorrow, and other feelings, and we are meant to express them. We were given so much beauty, and it is ours to enjoy.

Sometimes it is perfect to be as superficial as you can be, because being human is all about being imperfect, and if everything was always “profound” then nothing would be profound.

So yeah, it is about balance, and striking that is certainly like walking on a tight rope. (with a net underneath)

I think that balance, by it’s very nature isn’t something which is permenant. Considering that all things are in flux, and quite changeable, it stands to reason that balance, like the swing of a pendulum, or the flow of a tide, is best evaluated as an average, and not as an absolute.

It’s only natural to take a couple steps forward, and then a step backward (maybe a full fledged retreat.) The cycles of growth and development are more about the process themselves than the results. I strive to be present in every single moment, to abandon my intellectual restrictions as well as my emotional barricades. Thus, I strive for a peaceful overview of my path, and seek compassion and love for my progress.

But resonate with my love, respond to my laughter, dance with me to my music, and let me respond to you in kind. Don’t resonate with my pain… because while love lasts forever, pain is gone so soon.

That balance can be so elusive can’t it? I too try to embrace all three facets of my life and the world around me. When the balance swings too heavily for too long to joy or to sorrow that’s when I feel the most unsettled.