Well shit… I can’t say I’m anything close to a fan of Kate Winslet — even though she was amazing in ‘the eternal sunlight of the spotless mind’ and even more amazing in ‘little children’ — and there’s no way I could say I like anything Leonardo DiCaprio — even though he was great in that Woody Allen picture, and pretty dazzling in ‘the departed’ too — But I was definitely the last person I know to actually see Titanic and I thought is was awful.
I’m a complete romantic, more romantic and emotional than almost every single woman I know, but I am a skeptic when it comes to film. I love the cinema, and I am not easily overtaken, or sold a pile of goods. I want a smart film, a visceral film, amazing writing, beautiful cinematography, and I want to be completely surprised, transformed, and blown away by a film. Comedy is the most difficult of all to get past me. I love to laugh, but films which are supposed to be “funny” are so very, very rarely worth watching. I know, I know, I’m a dud. Sorry.
Well tonight I was watching Mad Men — the best and most important program to appear on the television screen in decades — and this trailer for a new film starring (yep, our favorites…. Leo and Fatty) and gosh dangit if Nina Simone doesn’t start singing my all time favorite song (the bad, rushed version of it.) I’m open mouthed for a second, and then I’m pacing and tears are streaming out of my eyes….
“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” I actually say out loud “I hand you my heart on a fucking plate, and let you walk all over me and in return I get “I had one foot out the whole time…” and “there’s lots of deep spiritual connections that don’t have a future…” and “I don’t think I should have to be sorry for things I don’t think I should be sorry for”, whatever that means… and now there’s my love letters on that goddam photo site. Jesus. Have you no shame? Are you out of your mind? Fuck.” I did. I really said all that to myself. Then I lay down on the living room floor and just had a good long sob.
I know… I know. What a lemon I turned out to be. How pathetic. But I have been up for a very long time. I flew to Baltimore and back and only slept on the plane, and then did sunday soul tonight with only a little afternoon nap. But I was feeling so strong. So clear. Fuck. The worst part is it’s a fucking Sam Mendes picture. He’s amazing. Wasn’t I just talking about how the American cinematheque can’t make a trailer to save their lives? I could have sworn I was just talking about that… Now they’ve got me crying on the floor, cursing the queen of my heart, and chomping at the bit to go see a freakin’ Leonardo DiCaprio film. Wheew… If you’ll excuse me please. I’m going to go soak my head now…
Watch the trailer… but if you’re anything like me you might want to put on a helmet first.
Don’t say I didn’t warn you this time.
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…. and it just breaks my heart to see you in so much pain.
*tears*tears*tears*
*hug*
I told you to put on your helmet Christina.
Did you have your helmet on?
you know me better then that.
please get some rest.
please go to bed before your immune system gets all weak too.
mamma c.
shit. i wanted to hate that, too.
but, no, here i sit with my arms all goosebumpy and tears in my eyes.
*sigh*
I know…
I know we all think we’re so tough. But please… I don’t ask you to wear your helmet very often. I usually just worry about my own.
Moonbeam. This film’s trailer, upon reflection, brought up a lot more for me than just the things that came out of my mouth.
I didn’t think it was possible that there was another levy to break, but clearly I was wrong.
I wish you lived nearby. I would love to see this film with you. Strange as it sounds… somehow it sounds perfect.
Funny, because I love that song too, but when I saw this trailer at the movies last weekend I was confused (by the way, I saw Ghost Town, and it was a rather good film). But back to the trailer; I thought “Aren’t they just being a teeny bit melodramatic and ‘actor-ey’ in their reactions? Couldn’t they be upset without freaking out quite so much?”
And I’ve never seen Titanic, so maybe I’m the last person on earth to see it, since I never will.
Oh my dear, awesome, wonderful Sonia…
That’s a question I’ve been asking myself all my life. It’s a great question. Sadly, for some of us… the answer is no.
* sigh *
some things require freaking out so much.
i will not be watching that film! too close to home right here.
hugs to you sunshine *(S)*
I thought I was feeling better, but that made me cry,
everything is making me cry lately. Maybe I am exhausted too.
I did not see the film, maybe I will.
Unfortunately I did see the titanic, It was very long, and I hated it as well.
HUGS to you.