sǝuoſ ǝuıɥsunS | notebook, journal, inter-web log

I hereby exchange:

1. A love that neither loves, nor speaks for a devotion which tells me everything, and reaches out for me, touching me, with gratitude, and tenderness.
2. A suspicious lack of music for every sound that comes to mind, every word, every riff, each note, and every intonation.
3. Regret, constant longing, and haunted dreams, for optimism, hope, and clarity.
4. Self love for inner love.
5. A black hole of confusion, broken pieces, and despair for a light in the darkness, laugher and deep joy.
6. Almost good enough, for room to spare.
7. Just enough, for much to share.
8. Virtual for actual.
9. Intellectual, closeted, unhealthy, and secretive for visceral, sensual, sexual, and spiritual, and out in the mothafuckin’ open.
10. Exclusive for inclusive.
11. Waiting for arrival.
12. Anglais pour Française.
13. San Francisco for destinations unknown
14. Naturalistic for Actualistic
15. The eighties for the double oughts
16. That ugly Pantera hair doo for beautiful, natural hair
17. Shimmering for blazing
18. Fireflies for Angels
19. Doubt for acceptance
20. The past for the present.

No, I don’t have a receipt, or even a gift receipt. I haven’t really got anything but these photographs and a couple of love letters to show for myself. Maybe this weathered face and the pouty-pants look on it will be the only evidence I can offer.
Sorry.
Charge me whatever you need to, I don’t mind that my items have been on sale for a while, or marked down substantially. That’s fine with me.
I’ll pay in effort, labor, and love.