The most beautiful part, is that Si touched you and others that at one point seemed impenetrable, and now you do the same thing. It gives me chills to think that anyone of us can affect so much light, really inspiring change and growth.

Yes we are all in Gods hands, being guided in seen and unseen ways, and we have choices and free will. It is so powerful and wonderful when we can find someone or maybe even a couple of people along the way, to trust enough to help us see our choices clearly.

HUG!

I haven’t quite come to be able to handle it all, but it did become quite clear to me that those things that I treasured and relied upon from them (now that they are gone) are now my responsibility to give to those around me.

I am supposed to fill those shoes somehow… And when you become the pillar for those around you (hopefully taking those things I’ve learned from them who are now no longer here) - it is precisely then that the feeling of adulthood really feels acute to me.

Seems strange to come to some sort of understanding like that so late in life. But I felt that pretty deeply after missing them.

My sympathies go out to you Sunshine. I know your experience is materially different, but I still wish you the best during this time as well. :)

rob.