Category: nouveau coeur | nouvelle tete

26 Aug

Like the bishop in a court of atheists

I process everything with my heart. That’s not to say that I’m not cerebral, I am. I love to think thing things through, factor out the facts, and argue passionately until the cows come home, but when it comes to the intellect, it is pure entertainment. Common sense appears to dwell in my house like [...]
09 Aug

Like the ashes in the glasses on the floor after a long night of thinking…

I feel the blood seeping out from the cracks of my heart… in a perverse way it feels warm as it spreads over my t-shirt, soaking my sweater, and dripping from the hem to the floor. I don’t know why there’s no sun in the sky, but I keep coming back for more. More. More. [...]
23 Jul

Out of the closet

I am in a relationship. I am seeing someone. I am in love. It is something which has been growing within me for years. Something I have had mixed emotions about admitting, and sharing with anyone. Fear, my strangely wide open, but curiously protective and private nature, and the unsureness of my footing in this [...]
11 Jun

In the service of blessings

I’m not sure what it means to be truly liberated. Having long been a man who will naturally resonate with someone’s pain before being anything close to capable of approaching real joy or remaining in the presence of true happiness I work up this morning almost entirely changed. I stood in the kitchen, making my morning [...]
23 Jan

rolling off the heavy brocade from La Chartreuse de Parme onto the floor with a thump

ady Aeraillia did not marry for love. She spent the first years of her marriage establishing her household, learning her way about the mansion, and finding her voice among the servants. Much of what we viewed as her “coming of age” was more to do with her internal revulsion at having to do her wifely [...]
16 Nov

Oh mighty heart of karma

To accept your Karma is not a resignation. It is a full acceptance of your life’s task with your whole heart. Krishna to Arjuna - Bhagavad Gita
31 Oct

Volez non mon coeur

Our heart is a collective of acceptance, tenderness, and pleasure. Our love, a compassionate desire. The thirst we quench is a fire which burns within each of us, uniquely and respectively. When the tender lips of our edges brush, a wildfire spreads across the landscape without mercy. The sparks are our children. The flames, the [...]
19 Jul

Couple days later…

I’m ok. It’s been a difficult few days, I’ve done some crying, some thinking, a lot of walking and not much talking, but I’m ok. Feelings are like clouds, they come and they go, and they come again, and then they go again. I spent monday talking to dozens of people who were beside themselves, and [...]